People are gonna think I am daft when I say that I can 'feel' when things aren't right and at moment 'things' don't feel right with me and my fella. We haven't been seeing each other long and so much has happened in such a short space of time, last weekend we got back together again after he finished with me, after a few home truths we got back together and at the moment it feels like I am on tenderhooks at all times with the relationship. He has more hang ups than me and cos I'm not always 100% I find it hard to get a grip on his. He can be full on and other times he can be completley nonchelent about the whole thing. And this is what I struggle with, I want him to show his feelings more but I know he finds it hard and when I say something soppy I feel that I am making him feel uncomfortable and apologise - which is stupid when you think about it.
This morning I was nearly involved in an accident at J18 of the M60. Silly drivers, driving stupidly in the wet weather and rain. All I wanted to do was call him but I was scared I would wake him up and make him angry.... stupid yes I realise. It's only when I am with him do I feel like he has any feelings for me...
Maybe I'm not feeling 100% at moment. I don't know. But I just want to be settled. Not sure it's gonna be with him though.
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2 comments:
Aww (((Bliss))) it must have been so hard not feeling you could phone him.
Sas xx
Yes it was Sas.
Things still aren't 100%, makes it worse I haven't seen him for a week.
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